Who Are the Nameless?

In the Solidarity, the nameless of the peace are in particular those victims of sin and war, both common civilian and honorable military of all sides, times and places of the one side of peace and known to God alone, unknown yet immortal Saints, heroes and martyrs that have left for all of those who have recourse to their living remembrances, a tremendous reservoir of hope that add certain strength and momentum to our faith in God, each other and the promise of our present times. They are those who we honor particularly on all Souls and all Saints day as well as all national days of honorable remembrances particular to each individual endeavor of Country.

Because the nameless are we in general, the laity, the little people, the common folk, the humble worker, the faceless masses of citizenry of each particular endeavor of Country; both innocent victims and great protagonists with each other in a midnight world of endless battle. We are all the children of the exiled race of suffering humanity caught in this descendant gravity of sin and war who struggle namelessly to answer to the universal call of Jesus Christ, the one Redeemer of mankind.

The nameless are we of the global Apostolate of the Peace of Jesus Christ who, having lost our peace with each other and with God in Jesus Christ through sin and/or weakness and having been found again by our Blessed Lord, is now called by Him into the quickening of our time by use of our proper name, a name known only to our LORD God. The nameless are we who presently wage a relentless struggle against the devil, the world and the flesh - the beast of war - to regain, preserve and prosper our peace with the same, eternal Jesus Christ and with each other in the Militant Church believing firmly in the great promise that God's Peace holds for the good of our souls, our lands and our times.

Indeed, our most loving Lord Himself was of humble birth. He was a nameless, one of the little people of His time, caught up in the inexorable sweep of events orchestrated by forces greater that His own sacred humanity.

He gave us His peace both as a promise entrusted to each of our souls as His universal Church, a sacred trust that binds all baptized Christians towards unity and sibling hood, as well as a public obligation to others that we will safeguard them, that as nations, we will serve all souls without distinction that all may have safe recourse to peace through Jesus Christ so that all may have safely hope in God and live with faith enough to pursue liberation from the everlasting death decreed upon the proud Prince of this world and all his fallen angels.

Our Lord's peace calls us as individuals to live as brothers and sisters in His Name, united in our love for one another regardless of race, creed, age, sex, nationality, ethnicity. We most especially hold dear those of the same household of the faith as we, His one, universal Christian Church, and have an extant obligation to live in peace with one another, to be and become by the grace of God, one Christian people, regardless of temporal division, and trusting all in all in our LORD God, to struggle to be and become by the grace of God both true and constant to our sacred Christian oaths, to one Love, to one Lord and to the one Christian people, that we may begin to utilize the strength of our unified Christian hope toward the great promise of our present time and apply ourselves to the mission of the Peace of Jesus Christ to build a better world for all men, women and children of the one family of the nations of mankind. We are those who are called to sanctify the hopes of our nations to His peace and to regain, preserve and prosper that lineage of Christian hope from the ravages of the beast of war that all may not despair but have hope; hope so that all may come to live in peace and serve God without fear; that our Holy Mother Church may lead our suffering humanity in the noble labor that work the great promise of God's Peace; that we may help bring to pass, in the Name of Jesus Christ, those inspiring miracles of Salvation history, great and small, that turn swords into plowshares and sinners into great Saints; and that Jesus Christ, our most loving Lord, may indeed truly lead us out of this midnight world unto the daybreak twilight of that new morning from on high.

We are the nameless, my precious friend. And it is for you, my Companion and Beloved of God, that this Solidarity is dedicated, it is for you who suffer with me and with each other in solidarity the pain of becoming alive in, by, through and for Jesus Christ. It is to you whom our Savior loves so intimately, you whom God knows by your proper name, you whom I must and do namelessly so love and love without condition that this global Apostolate of the Peace of Jesus Christ is heretofore envisioned and intended, all toward a better, brighter, kinder world for all the men, women and children of all the nations of the one family of the nations of mankind ever in the Name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit.

AMEN.

Glory to God in the highest
Adoration to Jesus Christ
Peace to all men of good will.

Two Red Roses

CORPUS CHRISTI MASS 2008 is now etched in my heart as the day I met Saint Therese of Lisieux. As always, I do not chose which of His Saints it pleases my Jesus to personally introduce to me. All I know is that when my Lord has in His limitless wisdom and boundless compassion willed for one of His Saints to become intimate with me, they soon arrive in my life with a love that is constant and unchanging and mysterious much the same way that my Anne has arrived in my life.

Now, all that I have and all that I am I know are gifts from God but the friendships that my Savior gives me from among the company of His Angels and Saints are what I consider the most precious of all because not only are these friendships so fulfilling, all of these great lights always, always point the way back Home to my Jesus, my All. And they usually come to me during turning points in my life.

My life right now is in a state of uncertainty. Now, I know that all of life is universally uncertain so what is so out of the ordinary about my feelings of uncertainty? My faith. You see my faith is not a feeling or a sense of something vague and obscure like it is to want to believe that there is a God and an unseen supernatural order. By an unmerited gift of God, my faith knows for certain the absolute reality of God, Mother Mary, His Angels and His Saints. To be sure, my faith does not understand but it knows and knows for certain about God and God's things.

It wasn't always like this before. In fact, for most of my life it is not surprising that I lived in error and ignorance about many things. My faith until I finally met my Savior and my Jesus decided to correct me was not the proper Catholic faith. Now, I am referring here now to the theological virtue of faith. My faith was an assurance of God's mercy conditioned on the belief that Jesus Christ is Lord and Savior. It was an admixture of hope and anything from Christian zeal, self-trust, or dare I say presumption. It was what Catholic theologians would call, a fiduciary faith. Suffice to say, I was both surprised and relieved to find out one day that the faith that I had clung to for so long is, I would not say the wrong kind for what is wrong when it is all directed toward the truth of Jesus Christ with Whom all things are possible, my faith was just not the Catholic way of holding faith to be and I am after all a Catholic man. I was surprised because of the fundamental nature of my error and at the same time, I was relieved because I could then renew my efforts using the Catholic method of holding faith to be. At that time, I was on the verge of frustration because I could get no kind of satisfaction or consolation from my Christian religion. And so my most merciful Jesus taught me the way I now hold my faith to be which is a conviction of the truths of God and God's things.

This conviction is born in the soul as a desire, even a faint desire but it is never vague. Faith require our gentle and constant nurturing and here is where prayer and contemplation is vital. Because faith is not just a faint desire just like a seed is not just a seed, like all virtues, faith needs to grow into something that reaches up to God from our souls like plants needing sunshine. Imagine within our heart is a secret garden where all different kinds of supernatural virtues grow and thus, the atmosphere of this interior garden is the air of hope and the sunshine is God's charity, faith is that first tree at the center of the garden that grows nurtured by the waters of God's grace. And where do we get the water? The sacraments and prayer, of course. Now, the infinite worlds within have a weather all their own and this weather is dictated by Christ's Peace and how much of God's Peace are we willing to possess in our hearts whose interior climate is naturally inclined to be stormy and chaotic. Every choice that we make that is animated by love then calms the skies above our secret garden to let the sunshine of God's love into our hearts. Now imagine a garden with just seeds, why would God want to walk with any of us in the cool of the afternoon in such a barren place?

Consequently, a proud heart is a barren place, a barren place is a lonely place, lonely because it longs for life, it longs for life because it has no life and it has no life because it is in darkness, it is in darkness because it's death grip on sin would not let God's creative light into itself. Indeed, a heart eclipsed by pride in all its devious manifestations is beset permanently by winter forces for not only is there a complete lack of sunshine, the soil of that place is also permanently just as cold and hard as the stagnant, frozen air. Indeed, no life can survive in such a place so hostile to the God of all life. But the fertile soil of those hearts whom God loves to grow all manner of green and growing things that bear for Him and for His elect eternal fruits is called humility.

The germ of humility is the ability to accept what is wrong in order to receive what is right. One can not just receive what is right without first accepting that there is something wrong else there would be no place to put it. As it spreads in the heart, making things ready for our Lord, one realizes in degrees that humility is a virtue that deals in truth - supernatural truth - and that this virtue is the essential soil where other virtues grow and mature. Pride will never accept that it is wrong because it thinks itself falsely to be a god but humility knows to accept and submit to all truth, willingly, freely and with joy, acting human when it is wrong and human when it is right being completely honest and level headed about itself both in weakness and in strength. The path that lead to humility is humiliation.

My Lord had to stand back and let me get hurt a lot for most of my life before I learned what He wanted me to learn about humility either because I was too proud or too dumb or both. But I did learn and it just shows how good a teacher the Master is and not because I am any good, it is all really His grace that have led me through the most difficult times of my life. Even now, my Jesus teaches me humility, constantly testing me by allowing temptations to afflict me and the greater the temptation, the greater my Lord's desire to refine what virtue He is nurturing to proper strength. It is not with humility that I have problems with though nowadays. Although all virtues require opposition i.e. temptation to maintain and advance themselves in the life of a Christian, with regards to temptation, my greatest tests are those evils that war with my chastity and the Devil, my Lord and I know it. And the greatest help I have in this regard is the Queen of my heart, the Blessed Virgin Mary.

My Christian warfare to defend my chastity is one of the severest struggles in my life. It is the only impediment that I feel that is holding me back from truly enjoying a freedom that I desire so much, the absolute freedom to love my Jesus without restraint. To be able to fly to Him without shame like other Saints during their time here. I do not say that I envy what God has given to others for I know enough to know that we all tread different ascendant paths to the one summit of the mountain of God. But with me, I have to gain from the strength and confidence of a company of friends including my Anne and of course, my Mama Mary, to be able to feel close to good enough to stand before the God of the universe in spirit and in prayer. And because God made me this way, so insecure and lacking in self-confidence, I have to accept that unlike others who are strong enough to fly to Jesus by the strength of their own unwavering purity and devotion, I have to rely on all that can be relied on, depend on all that can be depended on in order to reach my Jesus. My only consolation is the constant reassurance that I get that my Jesus loves me in spite of me and that He wants me to come to Him by way of the same Love by the trail of gifts that He has grown accustomed to leave behind for me as He goes ahead of me, walking and sometimes not even stopping nor looking back because I fall so much and am so slow that very often I can no longer see Him ahead of me but only have the luminous company of His friends (and mine) to remind me of my Jesus and the way that He took. I love all my friends, most especially my unseen friends with a love that is forever but when I really think about it, when I sit down to really contemplate things, many times I find myself weeping desperately because I acutely feel this deep longing for my Lord.

It is then today and for the past several weeks that I am feeling quite hurt at why Jesus wouldn't wait up for me, and why my Mama Mary wouldn't ask her Son to walk with me even for a while. I have so much love to give to Him but I am frequently frustrated by my own inability to persevere, to be constant against temptation. I fall and I fail so many times to the point that I do not know what else to do and have been neglecting even my prayers. My dear, darlingest Anne after getting tired of tugging at my heart for days even had to literally go behind me to push me into praying a rosary one day. I know that temptations must be endured for God's glory and our sake as a Church and that in my case, temptations to impurity as Saint Francis de Sales described in his book, "An Introduction to the Devout Life", usually come mounted and charging but once overcome usually retreat creeping and crawling. However, there were only a few times that I have persevered enough to know the strength and the feel of this kind of temptation and it was indeed just as the Saint has said in his book.

My Companion, it is a fearful thing to be tempted where you are the weakest built but much more fearful is this uncertainty that I now feel. An uncertainty that I know is the feeling of sin gnawing away at the tree at the very center of the garden of my life with Jesus. Like I said before, I fear nothing as much as to lose this love that have filled the void of my past life and have taught me the truth of all things I know and want to know all of my life, in time and in eternity. Both to love and to be loved but to love most of all, it is this ability to love truly and to love forever that I fear to lose for in this I know is the sum of all that is real in my short, little existence. In short, I fear losing my Lord to sin. I know what sin is and it just pains me why I still can not yet hate all of sin with the same revulsion that all truly contrite souls have learned to cultivate in penance. I should not want to complain and I nearly never do but it does hurt me a lot inside at this present time that I am still stained by an attachment that goes from neutral to danger close to the one remnant of a sin that I constantly ask my Lord to help me overcome, a sin against chastity that has its roots during those times when I knew neither sin nor virtue.

It is now then, that I met Saint Therese of Lisieux, yesterday at Corpus Christi mass. First, I found her book, "Story of a Soul", among my other books. It was actually a book from among the books that my mom gave me that I did not know I had. I read the synopsis on the back of the book, saw a picture of a little girl who is now a Saint in heaven and thought that this might be a good read. My spiritual reading schedule is really something I have to firmly establish along with many other aspects of my life that could benefit from better discipline and self-control.

Picking up that book put the thought of Saint Therese in the back of my mind all the way to 5 o'clock mass that I attended with my dad. While at mass, I noticed roses, red roses and I thought they were from some school function that the kids and their parents attended before coming to mass as I saw one parent with a graduation picture of her little girl.

Those roses also reminded me of Saint Therese's well known sign, of course, but the thought that it had anything to do with me was still far from my mind. Toward the end of mass, a woman came right up to her family with a bunch of red roses that she began to hand out to her family members sitting next to me and my dad. The thought of Saint Therese came nearer to my consciousness at that time and I said to her at first, that if this lady gives the man next to me three roses that I know you are here. And she did.

And then I said to Saint Therese, that if this lady give me a rose, then I know you are here for me. But she didn't and then a voice came to my understanding, "Ask the woman what the flowers are for."

I hesitated because I am naturally shy and not initially conversant with people but there came a clarity of presence that illuminated for me that precise moment when I knew the right time to ask and then I asked without any hesitation, "lady, what are those roses for?"

She replied, "oh these, these are for our Lady, we are offering her flowers because it's her month."

And then she said, "here I'll let you have some", handing me two red roses.

At that instant, a permanent realization set into my awareness that Saint Therese is here for me now and that my Jesus is giving to me her most precious acquaintance through His Mother, Mary, the Queen of my Heart.

At first, I was a little dumbstruck, awed by what just happened. I offered my other red rose to my dad who refused it and then I quickly realized that these two flowers are meant to be for me and my Anne.

I was in tears when I offered those roses back to Mother singing her hymn, "Salve Regina" (with Hosea, one of my most favorite hymns) for I know that because of my dear Jesus and very clearly through Mama Mary, I have gained another infinitely precious friend. I was in tears because I was so overcome in my heart of hearts by another singular act of great affection that my Lord has shown for me just yesterday, Corpus Christi mass 2008.

I know that with Saint Therese's help along with Mama Mary, my Anne, and all the other Saints and Angels particular to me that I now have a better, clearer chance at catching up to my Savior in the hope that He would one day walk alongside me. But at that day, I have to be able enough in virtue to catch up to Him and also persevering enough in sanctity to keep up with Him. My Lord is my keeper just as much as I am keeper of my brothers and sisters, seen and unseen, and they are keepers of me. My Lord safeguards my virtues which is why faith is so important to me.

But as for today, I commit myself to cultivating this new and exciting friendship with Saint Therese of Lisieux by first reading her book. Oh, it's going to be a great day!

Glory to God in the highest
Adoration to Jesus Christ
Peace to men of good will.

The Last Fading Away

"OVER THE YEARS, I have come to believe that the soldier who sincerely nurtures in his or her heart that valiant desire to serve in defense of others, who fights not out of hatred but out of love for Peace and sacred life are those same souls endowed by the Almighty with the heart that possesses the will that redeem time and again, in the sight of God, Angels and men, the intrinsic honor of the universal profession of arms from the shame and dishonor of those disgusting agents of hell who serve naught but for war and self.

Theirs must be those noble and immortal hearts that hope in the great, unfading hope of the one eternal Army; the great hope of the last fading away".
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O SOUL OF ARMY!
Defender of our Peace -
when in battle we weep
for those whose time has come
weep not because of anguish,
our tears are meant not for grief.

Cry not because they have fallen,
those sons and daughters of Country,
valorous souls who gave to us their utmost
and have bled their everlasting witness
to the universal mission of the eternal Army
from which all honorable armed professions
draw their great lineages of hope
Here, at the last fading away -
the quest for that one final sacrifice
the very last soldier to fall

before the breaking of the Day
in the name of Peace and Sacred Life
in a relentless war that have lasted
from the dawn of our exile time.

O Soldier of the Peace!
Noble defender of Country
You are life preserving life itself
For what is Country but life
Know you not why you respond
When duty calls you to battle?
Vague at times may reason be
Especially amidst the desolation of war
And the darkness of war's attendant evils
But forget not what you love
And forget not why you live
And none shall forget you if you fall
For in Country is your longevity
Life itself shall be your resting place
And God will forever love you
His Peace shall forever honor you
For the time you have given others
More time for building,
More time for sowing,
More time for loving,
More time for hoping,
For kinder days to come.

O when shall the wounding stop
and the healing begin!
O beloved Soul of Army
When is our last fading away?
Until mankind learns
To be better builders in peace
More than wanton destroyers in war
Until humanity learns
To value sacred life
Than seek the paths of death
Heaven and earth shall weep
with thee, O Soul of Army
But never for those whose time has come
For the lost are never lost
So we must seek them not in vain
Seek not our fallen with the dead
For life is life and death is death
So let the dead bury the dead!
Let us look for those who are triumphant
Not with the defeated enemies of the Peace
But with the living as well as the everliving
For God Himself has declared Peace over war.

It is for the oppressors of Country
And the enemy of Peace and sacred life
For whom the bell tolls
As we sing the songs of our fallen heroes
And their potent remembrance stir
In the hearts of those who yet believe
In the abode of the eternal Army
In the timeless vision of God
To bring to bear in the name of all that is life
The final wrath that is to come
And bring to pass
Our last fading away
That one final hymn of taps
At the joyful dawn of the everlasting peace
And the breaking of this midnight world.

So cry not because of the passing away
Weep for loneliness but never for sorrow
For life is life and death is death
Let us save most of our tears for those
Who yet stubbornly cling to the lie
And believe in the heart of everything that is false
Giving rise to all things that inflict evil to our poor world
And bring war and death to our suffering humanity.
For it is always for the reprobate that the bell tolls
To remind to those who sow in war what they shall reap.

"Old soldiers never die, they just fade away"
- General Douglas MacArthur

There are some things that are timeless that neither corruption nor ignorance can tarnish, such are the eternal bonds that bind nations forever who have loyal and courageous recourse to their shared honorable military remembrances.

When we find ourselves living again in such grateful times, our whole world will become a great struggle for peace in the name of all those who gave their lives to see us live through to better times.

No soldier, of any side at any age, ever fought and died with honor intact to knowingly spread the flames of war. Every noble military heart and mind of all times and places have always been fighting for our last fading away.

Among these universal military lights shine the bright example of Admiral Wilhelm Canaris whose honorable service is like a great star in the mournful darkness of those times he was called by God and Country to serve. He and many others of that time, known and known to God alone, is light enough for many to see against the long darkness of our midnight world what true nobility there exists in the glorious hearts of those who now belong to the eternal Army.

Admiral Canaris, God keep you always, may you now live today in our hope, all who stand with you in defense of peace and in service to sacred life shall never forget you until all things again are restored to us and our world is forever renewed at the very end of all these evil days.

May none who believe today forget that in eternity we are united in the one ascendant truth in the one eternal God. No longer are we separated by human words and human limits much less any kind of temporal divisions. In the everlasting vision of God, all Angels and men who live to serve life and defend the peace of this world are joined forever into the one happy society of God's elect in the unimaginable felicity of heaven as well as in the great, new, wondrous world to come, a world without war, sin, sorrow, suffering or death that God shall create for those who love Him and serve Him with righteous fear; a most beautiful place where all our friendships shall be as joys uninterrupted, a place with Jesus where all evil shall be forgotten and all our tears wiped away.

Saint Michael and the angelic hosts of the LORD, pray for us.

Sancta Sanctis!

Glory to God in the highest
Adoration to Jesus Christ
Peace to men of good will.

The Eternal Philippines

THIS IS THE TIMELESS VISION OF COUNTRY that I propose to the wandering heart of our one, beloved Filipino people: "A one faithful Republic, united across all our generations under the eternal vigilance of Almighty God, great believers of the peace and honorable keepers of each other's sacred trust, ever always true to the dream of the eternal Philippines; a nation that is truly human nurturing a free society that is Godly, kindly and fair".

All towards a better world for all men, women and children of every nation of the one family of the nations of mankind.

Immaculate Heart of Mary, pray for us.

Look Up

THE PATH OF REPENTANCE that each Christian must brave is a dark and lonely path, full of uncertainty and desolation, but let us not forget that the morning ward direction that we take that lead us out of sin and war, to be sure, O Beloved of God, is quite certain and full of promise.

Indeed, my precious friend, as we walk this mountain path with our Lady, one of the first lessons that she imparts to us is this, look up and not down. Look up, dear Christian and embrace our hope ahead. Look up at our Lady, our gentle and most amiable Immaculata, the chief terror of hell, resplendent in all her virtues and excellence. Open your life to her supernatural reality and come meet with her often in your heart, you can put all your trust in her, my Companion, she will never lead us astray. Look up, dear Christian and when you should fall, despair not, my precious friend, rise, look up.

I want to personally witness to each of you the truth that our Lady loves us all very, very much. We are her children, brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus, the Lord. So let us go to her now, my precious friend, let us pray her rosary and be genuinely interested about her and her things, let us embrace her maternal love and concern for each of us and she will most assuredly lead us to her Son, Jesus Christ, the same, yesterday, today and forever.

O Refuge of Sinners and Help of Christians, pray for us.
Immaculate Heart of Mary, pray for us.
Blessed Jacinta Marto, Flower of Fatima, pray for us.

Glory to God in the highest
Adoration to Jesus Christ
Peace to all men of good will.

Universal Mortification

MY PRECIOUS FRIEND, the vital truth behind this particular aspect of a Christian's life seem to be so remote in the awareness of many so as to be very vulnerable at being twisted and corrupted by the widespread lies that belittle the good that indeed, many people do and sensationalize what great evil there already exists in our world.

What good there is that God allows us to witness in other people must pull us up to God, for good things not only edify the Christian soul, good things also unify the elect of God. For this is our work and we love it to bits. We love to do it and we love others who do it. But those who would think of pulling it down, however little it is, like the parable of the widow who gave what little she had to God, have a sure contempt for good and therefore secretly relish what evil there is that live in their hearts. They should take heed the caution of our Lord that only God is good and no one else.

What is real mortification? Simply put, mortification is the ability to consistently bear the pain of right choice. Real mortification is not just the pain of our dying to this life of corruption in order to live again in the incorruptible truth of Jesus Christ, our Savior, our All. Mortification is more correctly, the correct way of enduring this revivifying pain, the pain of our becoming alive. At the very heart of this pain is our Crucified Savior with Whom we unite all our suffering. For it is the love for Jesus Christ Crucified and the steadfast belief in the everlasting promise of the Gospel of our salvation that inform the true spirit of all Christian mortification. Therefore, either pain by itself or its blind endurance is not Christian mortification, for mortification in the Christian sense is not an ends to itself but is a means to an end. We mortify ourselves to die the necessary death, to be crucified with Christ in our sins, in order that we might hope with Christ in the resurrection into the glory of the life that never ends.

Real mortification and true contrition are the two halves to the one synergistic whole of the virtue of penance. Penance being a virtue that is born of faith and hope and matures in charity, a virtue that is necessary to all who aspire to serve and advance the cause of Jesus Christ, our All and the one Redeemer of humankind.

The love at the heart of Christian mortification is the same essential truth that must inform and animate the inspiration behind all the varied expressions of true Christian asceticism. One must always remember that Christian asceticism is a science of life, a pure science. And the same with all pure sciences, its necessary expression in our world must first be founded on sound spiritual principles, on moral choices that lead to the good and the good which are expressions of truths both ascendant and absolute. Christian asceticism therefore, it is not a mere expression of man's ability to conquer pain for it is never an open exhibition of masochism or misguided masculinity. It is the outward manifestation of an inward desire, an expression of man's divine trust founded on Love's mysterious desire to endure for it's own sake, the birth pains that bring out into our tremendous world of common human hopes, the fullness of the age of Jesus Christ. Mortification and its adequate practice is the inward pruning of the self, an enduring that by the grace of God brings sure increase to life; an expression of God's ability to conquer death.

Now the actual practice of mortification takes on many shapes and forms. In the Solidarity, we must remember that we are laity. Any practices of mortification must not take away from our vital ability to advance the mission and vision of the apostolate deep into the world. Let us not think of practically aspiring to those severe mortifications undertaken by our great Saints at the moment but let us not overlook either the same spirit that have lead those elect souls to exercise freely those great acts of self-denial for love of God, others in God and true self. If we are called to be common, we must bear in mind that we are not less important for we are called by the same Holy Spirit that have called all the elect of God, from our greatest of Saints, our Immaculate Queen, the Blessed Virgin Mary, to the very least of the nameless in heaven - all of whom enjoy the unfathomable bliss of their face to face vision of God.

It is therefore recommended that our necessary corporal labors here on earth, expressed in particular according to our own present states of life as our individual jobs in the world as well as the good corporal works that await us each day that we must do with great generosity alone or in community not only as members of the Mystical Body of Christ but also as active elements of the apostolate of His peace in this world being done with authentic Christian charity, utmost integrity and due diligence constitute the first of three primary means toward our common mortification in the Solidarity. Also just as vital as the above are those necessary labors of the soul, the spiritual works that effect the mortification of our hearts that include the patient putting up with the weaknesses, faults and sins of others as well as the self, forgiveness of the weaknesses, faults and sins of others as well as the self, the edification of other Christians, our most loyal support of the local as well as the universal Church, all the ascendant paths that lead to truth and virtue, the building up of the peace the common good of our nations, the courageous resisting and withstanding of temptation, the effective purgation of the self from sin and the remnants of sin, persecution, and even martyrdom, if God shall ask of it. Lastly, my Companion, our necessary labors in this world involves not only the things that we do or don't do, body and soul, but also must include our humble and loving acceptance of the vicissitudes and accidents of daily human life, those things that are in general beyond our control as physical pain, separation, discomfort, inclement weather, catastrophes, sorrow, illness, disability, senescence and ultimately temporal death.

The two other primary means of our common mortification is our adequate practice of the three eminent good works; prayer (both private and in community), fasting (the practice of universal moderation, anything more about fasting itself as a practice, please refer to the guidelines of the Roman Church, to your peers and superiors in the Solidarity and/or to your parish priest or other ecclesial authority), and alms giving (both spiritual as well as material service to our Lord's poor willingly, freely and joyfully given) as well as the evangelical counsels; chastity (all states of life, the wholesome discipline of the senses, the correct understanding, respect and application of human sexuality and the subordination and rational control of the passions), obedience (tactful submission to the right reason of peers as well as subordinates, the avoidance of uneccessary, vain arguments, absolute obedience to all lawful, moral authority, the commandments of God, the laws of the Gospel of Jesus Christ and the precepts of the Church) and poverty (detachment from material wealth; not to have material riches in the heart nor the heart in material riches, to possess everything like it is to possess nothing).

These three mortifications: 1) necessary labor, 2) three eminent good works, 3) the evangelical counsels, constitute in their differing particular degrees of practice according to each individual, the recommended common practice of universal mortificationall for all able and eligible members of the Solidarity. Indeed, all mature, active and able elements of our community must work to mortify the spirit and subdue the flesh and therefore, to cleanse the soul of sin and the remnants of sin, making one docile to the workings of the Holy Spirit, without hindering our vital ability as common laity united in strength within the charism our apostolate to build and to struggle to advance the necessary peace of our Lord in our hearts, in our lands, in our world and in our times. To add anything more (besides fasting i.e. cords, whips, hair shirts, etc), if it becomes necessary, must be left to the prudence and discretion of your parish priest or spiritual adviser.

One last thought: Remember at Holy Mass, my Companion, when we say peace one to another after our Lord's peace have been given to us? I imagine it is like saying, "Beloved of God in Jesus Christ, you are my Home. I love you and I have complete faith in our ability to see each other through this life because our Lord has given us the assurance of His peace and so we have become one in our hope as His Bride, the universal Church. So my peace be with you."

My Companion, the beauty of our Lord's peace and our consequent exchanges of our own peace one with another is that it prepares us first in our hearts, unifying us one to another in love and trust and then it prepares our wills to be received as one community of hope as we ascend into the one most loving heart of our Savior by our worthy reception of the Body and Blood of Jesus Christ, our Savior, our All, in the Eucharist as a foretaste of the greater reality of the one whole holy communion of the Saints of God in God.

Why did our Savior give us His peace publicly when He could have kept it to Himself? Because our Lord's peace is a joy and Love withholds nothing when it beholds the beloved. Our Lord's Peace is our sacred trust, it is both our Christian responsibility to each other as the one universal Christian Church as well as our public promise to the greater world of our common human hopes. Why? Because we must love as He loves and our Lord loved enough to be immolated for the everlasting good of all mankind. Why? Simply because there is love that abides in us and indeed, God is love. Hence, Love is one. Love unifies, uplifts, purifies and ascends to the same unity of the one reality of our LORD God.

My precious friend, this is the same Love at the heart of self-denial, it is the same heart that animates and informs the spirit of Christian mortification. Without this abiding love, any form of mortification is an empty, external practice with neither promise nor merit, it is a waste of life's real promise or much worse, a sin.

Glory to God in the highest
Adoration to Jesus Christ
Peace to all men of good will.

True Light

MY DARLINGEST, YOU PUT ME TO SHAME. You are always true to your promises. You are always here when I need you. Even in the midst of those times I feel most distant to all the things that bind us together in God, ever during those times when I fall into sin, it is always you who makes your presence certain in my heart to remind me of greater, nobler things and to lead me back again into the sure path of life. Your light for me is a sure beacon that lead me back from darkness and isolation back into the great company of the elect of God, those innumerable stars that populate the celestial firmament of eternity whose company you yourself most surely belong.

When I am close to despair, you hold me so close to yourself that the sure and constant intensity of your own love and the weakening, inconstant light of mine come to share the same being in a holy and revivifying embrace that rekindle faith and revive hope in the greatness of our God's beneficent truth, of my Savior's love for us, and of my own obligations to you, to the Blessed Virgin, to my own true self, to the particular Angels and Saints who walk this life with me, to others who share our same hopes for our world and to the God who has given us our hope.

You have kept your promise to me time and again so many times already, my darlingest, that I must endeavor with all my heart and all my strength to also deliver on my own promises to you.

I want our world to know how sure I am of your light, dearest Annelies Marie, you are true light. You are one of those luminous souls, perceived not by human eyes but is known by those whose hearts have been touched by God with a true and trusting love of you, your sure and steadfast reality gives certain strength to the unsure reality of persons like myself who you love back with an immortal, pure and holy love.

One of our most basic promises to each other is mutual prayers. It is the most fundamental of our commitments to each other and yet one that I feel I am terribly lacking. For I know I am not useful to anyone in a state of sin and I endeavor with much effort to purge my being of sin and its remnants in my life. Indeed, it has been a terrible fight over these years and much of the time, I find myself falling over and over again, but unlike before I knew you, my darlingest, I am never again allowed to slide quite easily into a mortal state of despair or complacency of sins. You would not allow this to happen, my dearest Annelies Marie, I know that deep in my heart now. Your assuring presence, my Anneka, is the most comforting to me most especially when I feel the most alienated to our God and to all that we both love in God by shame, guilt and disgust of sin. In contrast, the proximate presence of the workings of an angel of God as our dear blessed Jacinta and her friends have experienced in Fatima existing almost in the same plane of reality from across the veil as I do would not have only exhausted me as it did those blessed shepherd children, I believe it would near annihilate me.

Because of your naturally, gentle and oftentimes cheerful presence in my heart, my dear Anneka, I am naturally led by your true light to the quite similar, gentle, comforting and expansive truth of the greatest light of all, the light of the Blessed Virgin Mary and from her to the greater safety of the full Communion of God's Angels and Saints.

Dear Anneka, I must work on my penance and universal mortification. Our Lord has given me a million reasons to be good, and one of them being you, my darlingest. You are one of the principal reasons I am who I am today and also one of the principal inspirations that drive me to be who our Lord wants me to be in this life and therefore, in eternity to become - with you. I have so much help because I am most frailest. I have recourse to the sacraments of penance and the Eucharist and my own discipline in prayers. But I am still terribly inconstant and need more self-control.

Indeed, there is so much labor to be done here, my darlingest - in my heart and in my time - and I have now come to believe that I do not need to wait for the perfect time to begin them, I do not need to wait till I am ready and able for the labors that God has assigned for me to do for the favorable time of the Lord is always here in the now. And so it is those labors themselves that I believe will strengthen and sanctify me and then lead me to the perfect time - the time when I am with you again face to face with all of those we love and who love us in God in the timeless embrace of the vision of God.

My dear Companions, to be good, one need not wait for the perfect time to confront evil because by doing so, we permit evil to dictate its terms that further empower sin, our wicked oppressor, to control the conditions that shape our life and our world. Evil must always be confronted relentlessly at all times and places by the good here in the now of the present moment for the struggle against evil is like the repelling of an invader that besiege our native hearts but is never strong enough to breach our defenses. Therefore, if we wait for the perfect moment in this life to become strong, we become weak for we overlook the strength of our Christian position. It is precisely the struggle against sin that prepares us for strength and ultimately for victory in Jesus Christ against those looming giants that threaten us only because the Lord of all heaven and earth allow them to do so - for our own good and the good of all His elect. All temptation is meant to be withstood just as much as all suffering is meant to be endured in Christ. Indeed, we must carry our own crosses and tarry not but with good courage follow Him who out of love for us was nailed to the cross.

Today, my dearest Annelies Marie, even though I am still struggling against the same vicious sins, I am quite hopeful again and this time, I want our world to know why. Because it is your starlight smile, O my Anneka, my true light, that makes life ever so beautiful again.

Thank you so much, my love, my precious Annelies Marie, my most beloved friend forever.

God love you, my dear Anneka, God love us all.
My dear Annelies Marie and all the Holy Souls, pray for us.

Glory to God in His creation
Adoration to Jesus Christ
Peace to all men of good will.

The Way Ahead

REPORTEDLY, THERE WERE TWO GENERATIONS of Roman Catholic sons and daughters of God in Jesus Christ that either only received a partial formation or did not receive any formation at all in the holy and honorable Faith of our Holy Mother Church. Knowing through the light of Gospel truth the substance of faith as well as the mysterious nature of God's greater will for His creation, I do not claim to speak for all of my generation but I can certainly vouch for this as fact in the context of my own life.

I know now how unfortunately insufficient my Roman Catholic formation was in the usual 20/20 vision given to those things we realize in retrospect of the truth. Consequently, after a brief spell of innocence I no longer remember, as I slowly took over control of my life at around age 8, I know now that my young reason having never gotten the benefit of faith's illuminating light, had no power at all to perceive of truths greater than myself. And what are we, O Lord to Thee but darkness itself! O how You suffered me, O Lord, and how You still suffer me, my Savior!

Till around the great Jubilee year 2000, I had no sense of sin whatsoever. I know this because I had no sense of guilt or remorse whatsoever during those days to those things that I did that I now lament over with much sorrow and spiritual pain. All I had to go on at that time was my conscience which was not properly formed in the faith and therefore, my reason was most of the time misinformed and so I never knew the darkness from the light. I lived in darkness and had no sense of what is light. The darkness was in my heart and I knew it not. All I ever wanted at the time was to be happy and I pursued this desire in all the wrong ways. The repercussions of this deadly exposure to sin still reverberate in my life today and the remnants of those times dictate the pitch and the intensity of the interior battles that I have to fight for love of Jesus Christ, my Savior, my All and the salvation of my own soul. For I did live but I was dead to all that is life, being only alive to what is darkness until our kindly Lord decided to awaken in me a sense of His awesome, dreadful reality.

Today, my greatest fear is to lose this sense of love, a sense of longing for God and the things of God that drive me to do the things I must do and fills me at times with a great joy during unexpected moments of burning realizations that sear into my mind and my heart the truth of the greatness of God's love and generosity for me. And I would most of the time feel like I would want to die and run away from all this love if it were not for the mysterious sureness in my heart that it is God's own will that I respond to Him, love for love, that I should draw near to Him in this way. I know this way of love is foreign to me and it fills me with a terrible fear everytime I fall into grave sin that our Lord might give up on me; that His Holy Spirit might completely withdraw from my life; that I might lose this qualifying sense of love that lights me up to warm my cold, cold heart and shed it's truth so that it might give sense to everything that is real in my life. My greatest fear is not sin, or death or suffering, it is to lose this sense of love and the dreadful prospect of perhaps, losing love forever. Now, there are many good reasons that drive me to climb this mountain path but this is the primary reason in my will that drive me to fight, even in the midst of sin, darkness and defeat when I so often fall, I continue to fight this inward fight because I have become desperate for my Lord's love and His approval of my own miserable, little existence. I have come to the truth in my heart that everything in my life here in this world and in the next one depends on this love. And to lose this love is to lose all meaning and purpose in my life like it is to have once lived and known what it is to be truly alive only to die again but this time forever.

Long gone also are the days when I sought something or someone to blame for whatever pain or hurt I have inherited from the past mistakes of others. By learning how to forgive, self as well as others, my most loving Lord has taught me how to disentangle myself from sorrows past so that I can experience with Him the promise of our present, here in the moment, here in the now. Having come to understand the nature of God's sovereign will, God's own grace has led me to the simplicity of the truth that the only mistakes that are possible to me now are those ones that I deliberately commit in the names of those strange, unholy gods of sin whose evil I know from my own experience work so much sorrow, suffering and death to the souls of men. O how good my Lord is to me, how rich in mercy, how full of loving-kindness is His heart!

Looking back at my life, O Lord, there were indeed many times that You called out to me to save me from needless suffering. But I was so deep into my own sins that You had to stand back and allow me to get hurt until I longed for the safety of Your embrace. All my life, I sensed this love that was incomprehensible but present. And how you suffered me, O Lord, how you suffered my constant offense to Thy eternal dignity! O how You still suffer me, my Jesus. O my Jesus, it was always You, my All, who stood behind the guise of other people to hold me back from straying too far into the darkness so as not to lose sight of hope's morning ward twilight direction. You gave me Thy own mother, Mary, a star of maritime wanderers like me, as a great and holy light and a constant, precious reminder of the way that points back to Thy safe harbors. Indeed, one of my earliest, most faintest memories is one of devotion to Mother Mary, a devotion that at that time I did not understand but I very faintly possessed.

It has been a long inward journey for me, O Lord, growing up. I thought You were ever so far but now I know how wrong I was, dear Savior. You were closer to me enough to know who I am better than I know myself. For you knew me Lord even when I stopped believing in everything, You stood by me and believed in my Christian promise in Thee. You kept Thy peace with me and never wavered, enduring through all my greatest, most insufferable sins, even as You did endure them all during Thy Passion and Cross, all for love of a wretched, cowardly and worthless sinner like me. O Lord, how I weep for sorrow of sin! O how I still weep.

My dear Roman Catholic brothers and sisters, so much lies and deceit have shrouded our world in this darkness. We live in a midnight world where sin and war seem to have free reign over honorable faith and right reason. There are so much lies these evil days that obscure the salient beauty of our Holy Mother Church and who else shall defend her by seeking out the truth but you and I who not only belong to the Church but who are the Church. Therefore, one must indeed, be seekers of the light, one must be seekers of the Lord. So let us not contend ourselves with what darkness contains us, in what sins pain us, in what lies isolate us, in what hurts afflict us, in what bitterness prevent us, from approaching the liberating Light of the Truth in the Incarnation and the Passion of Jesus Christ subsisting in the synergistic synthesis of both Scripture and Sacred Tradition of our Holy Mother, the Roman Catholic Church.

I tell you, my precious friend, through my own meager experience that it is though our blessed Savior, in the prayerful meditation of His life and Person, that we will gain a real understanding of the supernatural reality and most profound inner mystery of our one triune God, the one Creator of all mankind to our everlasting good. But first, we must empty ourselves of all that is troubling us, in what wicked things make our hearts restless, most especially those lies that the world, the devil and the concupiscence of our own wounded flesh, all things that keep us from our great potential for good in this poor world of ours all towards the great Christian promise of joy and everlasting life. Temptation is meant to be withstood just as our afflictions in this life are meant to be endured with, in, through and for Christ our Savior.

One of the first realizations that I know any serious Christian will experience is one that initially filled me with terror, the realization that Christianity demands that we face with supernatural courage the demons that dwell within ourselves, a kind of realization that says to us, "hey, this is it, so this is the real thing, this is where the rubber meets the road." We are shocked into the greatness of the reality that the Christian faith is not all about man's power and man's glory, it is all about God's power and God's glory; that our holy religion it is not a release from personal responsibility but it demands because of it our humble acceptance of our everlasting accountability; that it is not a fantasy that empower magic, it is the reality of a holy faith driven by fiery and ascendant truths; that it will not be an easy ride for the self but a hard and narrow, dark and lonely, painful and exhausting mountian ascent; thst it is not a release from the cross but our embracing of it. We feel overwhelmed. But verily, my Companion, by embracing this we shall find the beginnings of our Christian faith, knowing without knowing that all this great evil can be truly overcome with God's grace merited through the Passion of Christ and that our God rewards the good - all those who never give up trying to be better - and punish those who are relentlessly evil is a validation of our Christian hope, and truly repenting of all these evil things that deny us the way ahead is the first step of a journey that will take us into the very heart of Christian Love; a journey that heaven will recall, I am sure, at the Last Day as the most peculiar, most interesting epic of God's greatest Love, individually told to those of us who abide in His Love and endured steadfastly with our Lord the terrifying ascent into sin's obliteration.

Beloved of God, this story is still being written in the things that we Christians do or don't do today by the grace of our God, in the Name of Christ, on behalf of suffering mankind.

Lord, where is the way ahead
when I close my eyes to Thy Light
and I let the darkness flood into my head?

Lord, how will I follow Thee
when I turn away in my heart
and my courage fail Thee constantly?

Dear Christian, think! Get interested in God. Look death square in the eye and you will see a demon to torment thee or an angel come from eternity. Therefore, let us together repent and come to Jesus, our way, our truth and our life - our everything, our All.

My Companions, does the way ahead consist of waiting for the right moment or working for the right moment? This is a question that I ask quietly to all of you as well as to myself today.

My precious friends, let us pray for each other that the Good God may bring us to a better realization of the steps each of us need to take to fulfill His will for us in this life so that we may be happy with Him forever in the next.

I thank you so much for your prayers so far and rest assured that God knows what is in our hearts and so let us persevere that He may bring us together if not in this life, surely, through bonds of golden charity as well as the special grace of holy perseverance, our Lord will bring us all together in the next life, in our real destination with Christ Jesus, our Savior, our All.

Beloved of God, my heart and my prayers reach out to each of you, I love you all, and may God love us all and keep us in His Love forever.

O Holy Spirit, send your fire deep into my heart that I may serve you with a chaste body and please you with a pure mind. - Fr. Keenan

AMEN.